Please Do Your Debauchery After You Die - Chapter 39
Chapter 39: I Declare Myself an Idol
Don’t try to go against the trend.
It was said to be a mantis blocking the cart.
What happened to the mantis that blocked the cart?
Sayo’s broadcast was boldly explored, and over 3,000 viewers remained steadily.
Some may see this day and call me an opportunist or use more blatant insults, comparing me to leeches or bloodsucking mosquitoes.
There have been cases like that in the past on the Panbur Gallery.
Virtual streamers openly cling to big company streamers, attempting to get scraps, being ridiculed or despised for it.
But what’s really funny is that those who criticize so loudly, when their chosen streamer gets a chance to get close to a big company streamer, urge them to cling on desperately.
Of course, there are truly steadfast viewers following the “Najakbi” style who don’t change their attitude.
But I want to say one thing about that.
Is it better to stick out your hand to big company streamers or insist on your own style and your own stream without following trends?
On the surface, it seems principled and cool.
But in the end, what remains at the end of that?
If there are no viewers, trying to stubbornly choose to be a deserted island will only lead to a lonely ending, withering away.
If it’s a hobby stream rather than a full-time job, there’s nothing to say.
“Principles aren’t something anyone can flaunt. At the very least, you need to have self-sustaining power to say that. The world is the same. Ideology and all that, survival comes first.”
Remembering Lucy pre-regression made me feel even more bittersweet.
If Lucy only had 100 loyal fans, she could have done her broadcast leading up to something more influential without getting swayed so much.
Ah, maybe that was impossible due to her personality anyway?
“Ugh! Let’s all do our best again today.”
“Sayo, are you okay? Your dark circles are down to your chin.”
“Even if I’m not okay, I have to see it through to the end. What kind of audition is this?”
While momentarily recalling memories of the past, the audition for Group B began on October 16.
The number of audition participants was 42, one more than yesterday.
“So, the order for Group B is…”
Mashiro / Hana-tang / Narin / Bua / Ochia / Imparang / Soyeonha /
g*n Gamja / Sae Dalkom / Seo Chae-i / Mango-rang / Park Nana / Soeun / Doyun /
Maya / Lucy / Baio / Nancho / Choi Eun-bin / Orange / Nuri /
Choi Gangbok / Han-Se-bin / Han A-yeon / Yuhyeongi / Juda / Ppokgeum / Lizzy /
Jeoang / Hong Seona / Yoon Seo-ah / Mr. Dorong-cha / Yui / Tunyang / Geum Kiwi /
Binming / Geumyeo / Spring-Summer / First Snow / Ichirin / Na-roshi / Koko-nyang
Lucy’s nickname is seen at position 16, slightly ahead of the middle.
In fact, what’s more disappointing than the order is something else.
Park Nana, who can be considered the protagonist of the first stage, was avoided, but right after was Baio.
Baio is tightly intertwined with Park Nana in an amazing story.
Even if Lucy attracts attention with a wonderful stage, the probability of having her attention quickly diverted is quite high, so the disappointment is inevitable.
“That can’t be helped. They said no one would change the order.”
I was just lucky to be able to change my turn, and since it’s progressing as per the rules, I must understand.
“Well then, let’s welcome the first contestant, Mashiro.”
The early part of Group B’s audition rushed by with enthusiastic responses from the viewers.
Perhaps it felt that way because there weren’t any notable participants at the beginning.
Before I knew it, it was the turn of number 9, Sae Dalkom.
– Oh! It’s finally Sae Dalkom
– Sae Dalkom, let’s go for the final pass!
– Sae Dalkom, I bought a Bangsel, when will you give it to me?
The viewers’ reactions were exceptional.
Excluding me, a pure virtual from Pangea TV, Sae Dalkom was one of the virtual streamers who received the most early transfer buff.
Thanks to that recognition, public opinion expected a smooth pass.
However, the judges’ reactions were cold.
Sayo’s attitude was particularly blunt, making both the viewers and Sae Dalkom herself feel flustered.
“I’ve seen a few Bangsels that you made, Sae Dalkom. But I’m quite worried that you might show too provocative a side when doing Full Tracker broadcasts. After all, this is an audition for recruiting virtual idols. You know how important an idol’s image is. Honestly, I’m quite concerned.”
“Ah, yes. Uh… I’m sorry.”
At that time, Sayo’s remarks sparked controversy.
Was it too aggressive an opinion in a public setting?
Especially Sae Dalkom’s fandom was in an uproar.
Regardless of the intent, the main broadcast was criticized as if it were a nearly 19+ stream.
‘At that time, many antis of Sayo emerged in Sae Dalkom’s fandom.’
You could think that it was just a handful, but as this karma accumulates, there would surely be consequences someday.
“Next, Mango-rang, please come in.”
Nevertheless, Sae Dalkom passed with two passes and the audition continued.
Her avatar, with distinct front teeth, was impressive.
And her typical slow speaking style from Chungcheong-do.
There was a clear difference from the commonly perceived pretty and somewhat glamorous aspect of an average virtual streamer.
In fact, Mango-rang’s appearance had not changed even up until I regressed.
That made it all the more surprising.
A virtual streamer who survived not as a pretty, feminine presence but rather close to a “clown” position.
No, simply stating that she survived underestimates her too much.
Before Lebit TV vanished and big company virtual streamers transferred, she was referred to as “Burhwang” for quite a while.
‘Having received the scraps from big company streamers for a long time… and managing to absorb that steadily was ultimately her own ability.’
That’s the trajectory of the future, but for now, she is merely a Hako streamer.
True to her clown position, her speaking skills are sharp enough to barely pass the first stage by winning the favor of Sayo and Great Moon, but she ended up failing in singing, hinting at a dark future.
Certainly, participation in such large content to at least make her name known to the transferees is a big opportunity for Hako streamers.
“Next, Park Nana, number 12.”
Here it comes, finally.
As Sayo called her name, Ugadol made an appearance from the dark corridor, the protagonist of the first stage.
She was a streamer that left a significant footprint in many aspects of the Pangea TV virtual panel.
In fact, she was the most named among the participating virtual streamers in this audition.
During her prime, she ran a channel with 500,000 YouTube subscribers.
Although nowadays, with many channels surpassing a million subscribers, one might think, “Is that all?” in January 2018, there were hardly 40 YouTubers in Korea with over a million subscribers.
Moreover, her broadcasting experience was extensive.
Her first broadcast was in 2011 and her official debut was in 2012, so by experience, she was over 10 years in the field, making her even an elder compared to Sayo.
With this level of career, in fact, both the participant and Sayo… would feel some pressure.
Although Park Nana started broadcasting at a very young age, making her younger than Sayo, considering the experience, industry connections, and other standards, Sayo could not handle her as easily as the other participants.
“Hello. I’m Park Nana, a virtual streamer who is happiest when singing.”
Meanwhile, Park Nana stepped onto the stage.
A small girl avatar with a dumpling-style hair based on Karin.
Her clear and lovely voice belied her age.
With a resonant quality that’s hard to exert too much effort while still sticking in one’s ear, her vocal performance was impressive.
She smoothly continued with her self-introduction and reasons for applying.
But the moment Sayo opened her mouth, the atmosphere became quite heavy.
“In fact, when I received your application, I felt a question arise. Oh? Park Nana applied? Why?”
The purpose of auditions is ultimately to discover new stars, newcomers who are not yet known to people.
In that context, Park Nana certainly felt somewhat established, and that was pointed out by Sayo.
“While my broadcasting career has been long, I’ve had to take long breaks due to persistent vocal cord nodules and personal circumstances. And everyone teases me, calling me a ‘has-been’ instead of a ‘new-girl’, but I transferred to Lebit TV in 2017, you know? It’s been five years, how much do you think Pangea TV viewers remember me?”
– That’s true, I’ve heard the YouTube channel name, but I’ve never seen Park Nana’s broadcasts.
– I started watching in 2019, so I have no idea who she is.
– Wow! I used to watch a lot, but after transferring to Lebit TV, I couldn’t.
– Our Nana was called a has-been, so maybe she was hurt lol.
– But honestly, those in their 30s are cuter.
– You’re a bad guy; our sister is still in her 20s! She only has two months left, but she still has her twenties!
– The real bad guy is the one right above lol.
The chat room became noisy and chaotic.
Overall, there was a mood of agreement with Park Nana’s response.
Most viewers had only heard of her nickname but never watched her broadcast.
Yet, Sayo didn’t seem to be satisfied, hesitating before responding.
“Yeah. Well… I understand for now.”
“Well then, this time I’ll ask a question.”
To lighten the mood, Jerry stepped in instead of Sayo.
While examining the application documents, Jerry focused on one part and asked Park Nana.
“It says here that you have suffered from vocal cord nodules four times. Is that true?”
“Yes. My childhood dream was to be a voice actor, so I practiced a lot with voice acting and singing since elementary school.”
A brief glimpse into Park Nana’s life story.
The sorrowful and heartbreaking stories within it made the viewers deeply engaged.
I realized, unknowingly, that I couldn’t take my eyes off her, fully concentrated.
That’s why stories in competitions are always said to be the strongest.
They not only engage people but also make them tearful.
“… I’ve really improved my vocalization a lot. It took nearly three years for my rehabilitation to end. So now I’ve recovered to the point where I don’t need surgery, and my voice has become much stronger.”
“I can resonate more because I’ve also experienced vocal cord nodules. Once is tough, but you’ve gone through that several times… That determination is truly admirable.”
Enduring many hardships and challenging again.
How touching is that story?
Jerry praised Park Nana while Great Moon nodded as if in agreement.
What should have followed was Park Nana’s answer in response to that.
But after a moment of silence, her slightly trembling voice came out.
“Actually, I’m not that great of a person. My determination isn’t strong enough to be praised. The reason I could stand up again was thanks to my fans.”
“Fans?”
“Yes. There was a time when I almost quit broadcasting because I went through my fourth vocal cord nodule and couldn’t even get my voice out properly.”
“Ah….”
“The hospital told me not to speak for nearly two months to recover. I couldn’t even do ordinary daily tasks, let alone broadcast. I became so depressed that I had no choice but to turn on the stream. I couldn’t sing to my fans, so I just typed in the chat. For two months, it was just chatting.”
“…….”
“But my fans told me it was okay. There are plenty of entertaining broadcasts out there, but they’d come to watch my useless streams every day while cheering for me.”
Park Nana’s microphone momentarily muted.
Did tears slip out?
She quickly composed herself, and soon brightened up her voice.
“In fact, I could apply for this audition because my fans informed me about it. They said a good opportunity arose at Pangea TV. The truth is, I have been working, so I never dreamed of applying for such a big content. I switched to hobby broadcasting about two years ago.”
The atmosphere of the stream had already shifted to Park Nana.
Even Sayo’s avatar, who had kept her distance at first, was now facing the stage.
And Park Nana’s final statement sealed the deal.
“I prepared today’s stage for my fans. I may be a lacking streamer, but I hope for even a moment that my fans can hold their heads high and be proud… Then I’ll start.”
A lively melody shifted the atmosphere in an instant.
Amidst it, a soft voice pierced everyone’s ears.
“I declare myself an idol.”