Please Do Your Debauchery After You Die - Chapter 181

181st Episode: Withdrawal

Finally, the bomb that would become the biggest issue of January 2023 has exploded.

Announcement

Park Nana (nana_1010) · 2023-01-01 · 16:19:00 · Views 23,667

Hello everyone-!

Happy New Year.

As of today, I am withdrawing from Decrescendo!

I’ve finished talking with the members well, and everyone has been doing great lately, so I’m leaving without worries.

I’ve been struggling with my health, and balancing various things is really not easy for me, so I made the tough decision.

Although it was a short period, I really enjoyed being with Decrescendo! Thank you for loving Park Nana of Decrescendo until now!!!

– Recently, due to gastric cramps, her broadcast times were short, and last time she suddenly ended the stream and called an ambulance. [up 872]

– Park Nana has suffered from stress-induced gastric cramps for a long time. She even visited famous hospitals in Seoul, but there seems to be no specific treatment for it. The only solution is to reduce stress… [up 779]

– Ah… Please! No withdrawal… I can wait, so please return when your health gets better! [up 752]

Park Nana’s health issues were a clear fact.

It’s not something that happened in a day or two; she has been consistently suffering as a 13-year veteran streamer.

Since her broadcasting career is so long, there was plenty of information available.

She has a sensitive personality, and when stressed, she quickly suffers from gastric cramps.

A fan who has watched Park Nana’s broadcasts for about 10 years posted in the community that it seems like an event that happens every 2-3 months.

However, cases as severe as going to the emergency room have only happened a few times in the past years.

“Clearly, there’s a different level of stress between doing solo broadcasts and leading a crew.”

I had mentioned our crew’s blueprint for 2023 earlier, didn’t I?

Just coordinating the schedules of the crew members and having meetings is a long process.

For example, if I say we should have a meeting at 7 PM, a crew member who agrees right away is an angel.

Some will say they can’t because they have to broadcast at that time.

Some will say they have plans then.

Some will question if another time wouldn’t be better.

After begging and pleading, when I manage to coordinate the schedules of two people, here comes the last person saying they really have important matters and can’t make it at all.

It feels like being in charge of a university group project until graduation.

Even simple meetings are this chaotic; what would other tasks be like?

Let’s say they plan to upload a video to the YouTube channel.

Each crew member will have their own opinions.

From the time to upload the video to the concept, each person’s significance in the video, and the likes and dislikes of the video, etc.

The person who eventually needs to receive and coordinate the complaints and requests of the crew members is the leader.

So what about the fan cafe?

Or how about communication with workers and external meetings?

The more successful the crew is, the more the leader has to suffer.

But what if, in addition to that work-related burden, there are also issues with human relationships among the crew members?

I would feel like just blowing up the crew and running away.

Yeah, that’s probably how Park Nana felt.

If you know the background and reason behind Park Nana’s transfer to Pangea TV to start broadcasting again, it’ll be easier to understand the current situation.

“Actually, Park Nana has trauma related to the crew.”

The story goes back further to the “Excitement Club.”

At one time, the Excitement Club built an impressive tower with 500,000 YouTube subscribers.

The reason it collapsed was very simple.

It was because there was “no money.”

At that time, the Excitement Club’s YouTube channel was uploading various cover songs and gaining popularity, but each video cost between 300,000 to 1 million won depending on the content.

Uploading one of those videos every week meant a lot of operational funds were needed.

Fortunately, that amount was only possible because the workers who liked the Excitement Club collaborated with just the minimum payment.

“It’s not just about money. You have to record every week. Plus, you have to continue doing personal broadcasts. When you think about it, it’s a truly laborious effort.”

Fortunately, perhaps as a reward for that effort, the response was extremely good.

Two videos with over 20 million views and ten videos with over 5 million views prove that fact.

However, the problem was that such views didn’t generate any income.

“It’s impossible to monetize through cover songs. Moreover, the YouTube environment wasn’t as well established back then, and the advertising rates were incredibly cheap.”

Despite pouring in money and effort, the returns were meager.

As a result, the Excitement Club ultimately split in two.

One side wanted to endure a bit longer and manage the YouTube channel, while the other insisted on focusing on personal broadcasts.

This conflict intensified under harsh schedules and environments and eventually escalated into emotional battles among the members.

At this time, Park Nana, who felt many wounds and betrayal, decided to transfer to LebitTV, opting for isolated broadcasting.

She didn’t want to feel such emotions intertwined with other streamers anymore.

Thus, after broadcasting alone on an isolated island, suffering from sudden vocal cord nodules for years, and finding a separate job to continue streaming as a “two-job” person, Park Nana one day heard about the “Ugaidol Audition” from a viewer and decided to take on a new challenge.

After that, we know the story.

In fact, Park Nana had no desire to take on the role of crew leader again.

She initially applied for the Ugaidol Audition because “Sayoh” would play the role of the leader, and she often mentioned during the audition that if she didn’t pass, she would return to LebitTV without regret.

What changed Park Nana’s mind were “Seolpyo-woo” and “Mu-yo,” who prepared content with her in the second audition Group E.

They clung to Park Nana’s pant legs and insisted that she must not quit broadcasting or return to LebitTV.

Ultimately, Park Nana opened her heart to them and decided to challenge herself again with a new crew.

But what was the result?

“Indeed, it seems I made the crew too hastily.”

In the case of the Excitement Club, it wasn’t anyone’s fault.

It was a matter of differing values.

This time was the same.

After entering Lena World, a massive influx came, and the crew members’ broadcasts thrived.

Mu-yo became involved with Mr. Young-jun, creating a shared story.

Elsa, Seolpyo-woo, and Baio received the overflow from the big company streamer Kim Hak-do, recording 10,000 viewers.

When the tide comes in, you must row.

Members, tempted by the overflow, continued broadcasting as if they had stayed up for several days.

In such a situation, was operational smoothness for the crew even possible?

Park Nana didn’t issue that notice for no reason.

The message stated that during the crew meeting time, no one showed up… and written in a tone that suggested it wasn’t the first time this had happened.

“It’s ultimately the same difference this time. Other members, seeing that a golden opportunity has come, feel that they should focus on their personal broadcasts, while Park Nana showed her sense of responsibility as the leader…”

Even I feel that if such an opportunity arose, I would probably act like the other members.

How often does such an incredible overflow come in a broadcasting life?

If it’s an opportunity that won’t come again, you need to grab it tightly immediately.

However, for Park Nana to understand such feelings from the members, Decrescendo was still a newborn crew that had only been together for two months.

It was too short a time to deepen mutual bonds.

Perhaps the mindset was more business-oriented.

Moreover, Park Nana had already experienced something similar before.

Conflict among crew members, differing opinions… and the emotional battles that arise from it.

The trauma brings extreme stress.

That leads to gastric cramps.

It had become serious enough that she could not bear it during broadcasts and called an ambulance.

Yet, the situation does not change.

Crew members were still enslaved to Lena World and were even canceling planned crew content.

“I think I’ve seen something like this before… Was it year-end? Or New Year’s Day? There was supposed to be planned crew content then.”

Ironically, instead of crew content, Park Nana’s withdrawal notice arrived.

Fortunately, based on the content written in the notice, it seems discussions had been had earlier, and shortly after, crew members began to come and comment.

Glancing at the community, posts related to Park Nana’s withdrawal were flooding the popular posts.

And in most of those posts, one could catch the anxiety of the Decrescendo fandom.

Park Nana had essentially played the role of a central figure, binding together members with whom she had no actual closeness.

Can the Decrescendo crew sustain itself without Park Nana?

It was a nuclear bomb dropped on Pangea TV right from the first day of the New Year.