Streamer Crazy About Slaughter - Chapter 67
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“Ah.”
Things had not been going as planned since the broadcast started.
A sudden large donation.
I thought I would be doing an ordinary broadcast before moving on to Another World, but everything was thrown off.
Besides, the chat seemed more excited than I was for receiving one million won. It felt like they were eagerly anticipating what kind of reaction I would show, and I wanted to sigh.
“Everyone… you want to see a reaction, right?”
Even I was unsure what I meant by that.
[Noㅋㅋㅋ]
[I really don’t want to reactㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ]
[It seemed like a reaction was coming because of the wait;]
[But what do no-cam streamers do for reactions?]
[Do they just sing or act cute?]
[Dull reactions from Dullahans all look terrible.]
[Well, I did receive 1 million won, so surely I will react?]
[No way, right?]
“Just a moment. Then.”
I let out a small sigh and ended up opening the Newtube site.
If I don’t know, I have to look it up.
Tap tap.
When I searched for ‘streamer reaction,’ various videos appeared.
However, most of the videos had a cam.
So, I searched again with ‘no-cam reaction.’
Though videos came up, most seemed vague to me even after watching.
I wondered if this was what viewers liked, or if it just felt like streamers weren’t doing much in return for the money they received.
Ah.
Then, I suddenly thought.
“Has there ever been a time when I received money and reacted properly…?”
Thinking back, I received support yesterday, but I didn’t show much of a reaction then.
So, I tried to lighten my mind.
“Right. Let’s lower the expectations for the reaction completely from the beginning.”
With that thought, I tried to imitate something I had seen in a Newtube video.
“Yoon Eunha has donated 1,000,000 won!”
<"You don’t have to react since I didn’t donate expecting a reaction.">
Until another donation of 1 million won burst.
***
“Everyone wants to see a reaction, right?”
A gentle youthful voice. It was exactly the same as the voice of the character Lin I had watched in the video.
As if Lin’s character were her.
“Not a character… but her real voice.”
Well, it was a voice I had never heard before, so it was understandable.
Eunha, watching Lin’s stream as a streamer rather than from Another World, felt a bit intrigued yet somewhat irritated by the chat.
[No, this is taking too long.]
[The donor must be going to lose their patience, lol.]
[Just how amazing of a reaction is Lin trying to show?]
[Sing for us!]
[That could be nice.]
[The chat’s going wild again, lololol.]
[If it’s 1 million won, surely Lin will give a big reaction, right?]
[No, for real, it says no reaction on the screen; why the fuss?]
The chat quickly flooded with messages requesting reactions.
I wondered if this was what internet broadcasts were like, but Eunha felt something was off.
“…I was the one who donated.”
Why were they making a fuss?
On top of that, Lin suddenly seemed to be speaking less.
While watching Serin’s stream, Eunha felt an unnecessary sense of guilt.
“Just a moment. Then.”
Was it because of the high expectations of the chat? Listening to Lin’s voice, which hesitated as if feeling pressured, I realized that I felt it myself.
Did I put pressure on Lin because I donated?
“Did I burden Lin…?”
Compared to what I saw in the Newtube video or yesterday in the broadcast featuring Plea, this felt too different.
Sure, being surprised with the first donation was fine, but her drastically reducing her words now due to the fast-moving chat was not something I liked.
`This is not what I wanted.`
Seeing Lin hesitate made me feel like I had done something wrong.
What I wanted was for Lin to be confident and sure, displaying not a hint of hesitation when interacting with someone.
A beautiful dancer, wielding the Crescent Moon Blade or holding a great sword as she faced off against a great sword user, smiling brightly.
“Let’s donate again.”
So, I resolved to donate once more.
I wanted to convey my feelings.
That there was no need to feel a heavy burden, and that she could just broadcast as usual.
Tap tap.
I entered the donation amount in the ‘Donate to Streamer’ window once again.
1,000,000 won.
Without hesitation, I moved the mouse straight to the donate button.
Click.
Diiing!!!
“Yoon Eunha has donated 1,000,000 won!”
<"You don’t have to react since I didn’t donate expecting a reaction.">
The donation was accurately displayed along with the donation notice on the screen.
What Eunha wanted was for Lin to have a conversation with her, not to react for other viewers.
So, I spoke instead of saying not to react.
[???]
[No…]
[Don’t react?]
[Hahahahahaha]
[You set these expectations up like this?]
[Seriouslyㅋㅋㅋ]
[Isn’t this Yoon Eunha picking up on the vibe?]
[Lin was just about to react.]
[What can you do when the person donating says that?ㅋㅋㅋ]
[H…]
“Thank you so much for Yoon Eunha’s 1 million won donation again. And you mentioned not expecting a reaction, which I appreciate. Alright, I’ll gratefully accept that sentiment.”
Her voice felt lighter.
Hearing Serin’s tone as if she were relieved, Eunha felt at ease.
“Her voice…”
And unknowingly, I found myself thinking her voice was so pleasant.
Maybe it was because I already had feelings for her, but even Serin’s light words sounded absolutely delightful, and I smiled subtly without realizing it.
However, my smile vanished with next heard words from Serin.
“Then, let’s move on to Part 1 community check content right away.”
With no trace of hesitation, Serin announced she would now do her job.
“…”
I felt a strong emotion of disappointment, and I found myself feeling somewhat strange.
I wished she could have shown a bit more interest in me; it felt empty as if the thank you had just ended.
“I donated 2 million won.”
Though the donation was indeed derived from pure goodwill…
I never imagined Lin would switch topics so abruptly.
Ding!
Then, suddenly, a notification sound caught Eunha’s attention, and her expression brightened.
[Lin: Yoon Eunha, is there anything you want? Since I received 2 million won, it feels off to just move on… I can accommodate any requests other than personal information.]
[Yoon Eunha: Oh, I really donated because I wanted to! Can I add as a friend in Another World?]
[Lin: If you tell me your nickname, I will request it when logging into Another World later.]
[Yoon Eunha: Thank you!! My nickname is ‘Joan of Arc.’]
***
Kim Ha-yoon spent the night editing videos.
She gazed blankly and smiled at Serin’s broadcast.
Hoping there might be some news or mention about the editor during the broadcast, she had turned it on in line with the broadcast time.
While editing, a tremendously large donation notification caught her attention unexpectedly.
“Yoon Eunha has donated 1,000,000 won!”
<"You don’t have to react since I didn’t donate expecting a reaction.">
“……”
Thick, clamorous, and low emotions bubbled up inside her repeatedly.
No, going beyond that, Ha-yoon could not even muster other words.
Just 10 minutes.
Only 10 minutes had passed since the streamer Lin turned on her broadcast.
The donated amount had exceeded 2 million won.
“Heh heh…”
A bizarre laugh.
The twisted smile that settled on Ha-yoon’s lips appeared ghoulish.
“I feel like I’m being tortured…”
Although she had been editing videos all night to become Lin’s Newtube editor, she was still a streamer herself.
A low-tier streamer…
She had no memory of even receiving a donation of 10,000 won.
Yet, someone…!
Ha-yoon suddenly shook her head vigorously.
Slap!
Then she raised both hands and loudly slapped her cheeks.
“Kim Ha-yoon, get a grip… Don’t be jealous, don’t feel envious, don’t harbor bad feelings. You’ll become an editor, right? Yes. You made that decision…”
She had diligently studied for success over the past few months, referencing other streamers and Newtubers, working harder than for a university entrance exam.
However, Kim Ha-yoon ultimately felt that she would not make it.
To succeed as a streamer or Newtuber, one needed ‘talent’ above all else.
In other words, ‘fun.’
Just because you worked hard or tried harder doesn’t mean fun will naturally arise; she was vaguely beginning to realize this.
Things she felt while studying other streamers and Newtubers.
Even if she tried to imitate that, she could never express it herself.
Suddenly, the few comments on her Newtube video came to mind.
[This person makes great videos, but they are boring…]
[3 likes]
[Low-tier streamers have reasons.]
[2 likes]
Now, she had just one day since she resolved to walk the path of an editor, having compromised with reality.
—”Yoon Eunha has donated 1,000,000 won again. Thank you so much. And you mentioned that you didn’t expect a reaction, which I appreciate. I will gratefully accept that sentiment.”
No, excuse me…
You just received 2 million won.
No reaction…?
Was a simple thank you just the end of gratitude for the donation?
Ha-yoon, who couldn’t find the words to express her astonishment and disappointment, stared at Serin’s broadcast blankly.