Streamer Crazy About Slaughter - Chapter 134
Serin realized only after she spoke.
‘Ah.’
How strange the words she had just said were.
Why did she say such things? She didn’t even understand herself.
– “Viewers, you’re only watching me, right? You understand, don’t you?”
– “Please just look at me now.”
– “I’m only looking at you all right now.”
The words she had just spoken kept swirling in her head, making her feel like her mind was floating.
—Ding ding ding!!!
“Yoon Eunha has donated 3,000,000 won!!”
《What was that expression and tone of voice just now, Lin…? What was that!?》
“…Ah.”
Staring blankly at the donation notifications, she hastily manipulated the hologram and completely turned off the cam broadcasting.
Then she quickly turned the screen to show any part of the Colosseum background and hid her body behind a large rock obstacle, trying to blend in somewhere.
“…”
Feelings of shame and awkwardness surged up to her throat, rendering her speechless.
—Ding ding!!
—Ding ding!!
—Ding ding!!
Not wanting to see any reactions, she minimized the chat window of the hologram.
With the donations ringing one after another, she was overwhelmed by the desire to end the broadcast right then and there. But with donations pouring in like this, she couldn’t just end the stream.
“Sigh.”
Covering her face with her hands, she let out a deep sigh.
Had she momentarily gone mad?
‘Why did I say such… embarrassing things?’
The more she thought, the more meaningless sighs escaped her lips.
“Ugh…”
Ruffling her hair in frustration, her hands and feet twitched.
Grabbing the Crescent Moon Blade, which gave her a slightly cool feeling, she pressed it against her cheek.
Attempting to calm herself with its faint coldness.
‘Why on earth…’
Why did I do that?
As she tried to think of reasons, various thoughts came to mind.
Was it because she felt uncomfortable seeing the chat filled with discussions about Joan of Arc?
Or because she was conscious of the last time the chat was flooded with another topic?
Reflecting on why she had let those words slip out, she found several points that bothered her, but she couldn’t fathom that such trivial matters had driven her to say something so crazy.
“…Hoo.”
As she sighed quietly, she suddenly thought that internet broadcasting was really detrimental.
Had she unintentionally grown accustomed to receiving viewers’ attention that she was now craving it?
Even her most trivial actions were performed with the broadcast in mind, and even her words came out unconsciously for the sake of gaining viewers’ interest.
What should she say? She kept wiping her face.
—Ding ding!!
—Ding ding!!
While the constant donation notifications rang in her ears, she was busy thinking of excuses.
Then a thought struck her.
‘Reactions.’
Right, let’s just say she was practicing some kind of reaction.
The amount that Ms. Eunha had donated throughout the day was so significant… that she wanted to express her gratitude through some sort of reaction… Yes, that could work.
‘…’
Biting her lip, an absurd chuckle escaped her.
She knew that all of it was mere self-justification, but at this moment, if she didn’t think that way, it would be hard to endure the shame swelling up within her.
First, she couldn’t even muster the courage to look at the minimized chat window, so she slowly opened the donation history.
“Yoon Eunha has donated 3,000,000 won!!”
《What was that expression and tone of voice just now, Lin…? What was that…?》
“Ryohwa has donated 50,000 won!!”
《?????????》
“1il has donated 50,000 won!!”
《Is this what they call a plot twist or something??》
“rain8694 has donated 100,000 won!!”
《Oh… just… Lin… only…》
She glanced over a few of the donation messages, but even that was too difficult to bear, so she turned it off.
Then, pondering how to get through this situation, she came up with a solution.
Since she couldn’t end the stream, maybe if she turned off her appearance in Another World, things would calm down a bit.
To continue the broadcast, she would have to say something, but if she kept the Another World on, it would seem stranger not to show her character.
She thought she could just return to reality with no cam.
“…Disconnect.”
With those words, her vision familiar faded to black.
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“…”
Serin, biting her bright red lips tightly while covering her face with her hands, leaned back in the capsule.
After disconnecting, she felt even more extreme shame, as if her entire face was heating up, leaving her dazed.
She knew all too well what it felt like to feel ashamed.
No, she just wanted to d*e like this.
“…d*mn it.”
With her flushed face, she cursed under her breath while she grabbed her white hair, repeating the motion multiple times.
From now on, she thought that it didn’t matter if the viewers became interested in someone else or if chaos erupted—she would deal with it.
She should just let go a bit, but the shame that filled her body did not dissipate easily.
‘What is this?’
Realizing the reality of shaking her whole body in shame, she found herself laughing without reason.
“Ha…”
But after just a moment, Serin got up from the capsule.
As a result, her disheveled white hair concealed her body as it swayed this way and that.
Shuffling forward like a loser, Serin headed toward the desktop where the broadcast was still running, continuously trying to compose herself.
Just… broadcast statements.
As a streamer, it was acceptable to say those things.
If other streamers thought of it as simply thanking for donations, it wasn’t that big of a deal.
She reassured herself. With that forced rationalization, the shame that had filled her body seemed to gradually lessen.
And since she was live on air, she had to say something.
As she saw the monitor screen right in front of her and noticed the chat window rapidly filling up, she unconsciously averted her eyes. She didn’t want to see the chat.
“Ah… Um.”
Bringing her mouth close to the mic cautiously, her voice trembled.
“Just now, I was trying to say it was a reaction… uh, something like that.”
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[What’s with the chairman’s wealth…?]
[10 million won donation a day, that’s insane…]
[But honestly, it was worth donating just now, hahaha]
[For real, if I had money, I would’ve donated too.]
[What was that just now, Lin?]
[I hadn’t been thinking about it, but suddenly you said that, and now I’m dazed haha.]
[Why are we watching a girl streamer?]
[What’s with not allowing clips?]
Eunha looked at the rapidly rising chat window and then back at the broadcast screen, but still, only the empty Colosseum was being shown.
Ms. Serin was nowhere to be seen.
“Is she feeling embarrassed?”
Eunha, smiling brightly, inferred the situation.
Clearly, she hadn’t even received a thank you for the hefty amount she just donated—3 million won—but still, Eunha felt strangely satisfied.
“Serin’s expression just now was super cute…”
Her stunned expression as she realized what she had just said and hurriedly turned off the cam was quite impressive.
It was unexpected to see someone who seemed so composed suddenly say something like that, and even Eunha found herself momentarily captivated.
Plus, knowing that Lin in Another World was essentially Serin herself made all her actions feel even more immersive.
While she was thinking this, Eunha suddenly seemed puzzled and opened her mouth.
“Hmm?”
Suddenly, the Another World broadcast turned off.
With the message that there was no connected signal, the broadcast darkened and soon switched to a basic background screen, leading Eunha to momentarily think that Serin had ended the stream.
After that, only soft background music played, and the chat filled with comments asking why the game had suddenly been turned off, requesting to hear her voice, and urging her to continue with Another World, among various other things.
Having started watching internet broadcasts through Serin’s stream, Eunha was gradually adapting to ‘streaming culture.’
Though the chat might seem serious at first glance, she understood that it was just viewers reacting excessively.
Moreover, donations of small amounts continued to pour in, and the chat was filled with discussions about Serin’s recent behavior, making it somewhat entertaining to read the donation messages.
“LinUnnieIsMine has donated 50,000 won!!”
《Unnie, do you really want to see me go crazy?》
“Paksyeon has donated 50,000 won!!”
《You say that, then suddenly turn off the in-game cam and exit the game? Hahaha.》
“ObsessiveStreamer? has donated 50,000 won!!”
《Obsession… I actually like it!!!》
“HeyUnnie has donated 50,000 won!!”
《’I’m only looking at you all right now’》
“What’s with that line…? has donated 50,000 won!!”
《’You’re all only watching me, understand?’ What was that line?》
Eunha, while gazing at the climbing chat and donation windows, quietly waited for Serin’s voice to come through.
And finally.
“Ah… Um.”
As Serin’s hesitant voice reached her ears, Eunha perked up.
“I was trying to say it was a reaction… uh, something like that.”
“Pfft…”
Just hearing Serin’s voice made it clear she was feeling enormous shame, making Eunha smile.
She couldn’t imagine how embarrassed she must be if her voice was trembling like that. For some reason, she could almost picture the whole scene in reality.
Perhaps she was blushing bright red between her white hair and was nervously twitching her hands and feet…
—Ding ding ding!!!!
“Plea has donated 1,500,000 won!!”
《Lin, you said you would only say that to me…! What’s with training the viewers right now!?》
Looking at the donations flooding the screen, Eunha chuckled softly.
“Seems like I’m closer to Serin than I thought?”