VTuber RP Is Not a Concept - Chapter 80

The moment I immersed my body, I was completely submerged.

I soon found a rock to stand on and kept only my face out of the water.

The spring, where sunlight didn’t reach, was cold.

I felt a tingling and vivid sensation.

It’s not a big deal.

Thinking that, I stayed still.

“Maybe they thought it should be sacred and quiet because it was a ritual.

Complete silence flowed, and no one tried to break it.

It was rather fortunate.

Because it didn’t disturb me when I closed my eyes and meditated.”

When I heard a voice and opened my eyes, I didn’t know how much time had passed.

But I could tell that a relaxed atmosphere was flowing.

Someone seemed to be bored, and it seemed like there were empty seats.

“Actually, I didn’t open my eyes because of the voice.

Because I couldn’t concentrate at all.

Because it was so cold.

It felt like the water was cutting through my skin and seeping into my bones.”

[– Trivia: If you stay still in water, you get cold quickly.]
[– It’s not that kind of atmosphere, get out.]
[– Leah is pitiful ㅜ.ㅜ]
[– Listening to this woke me up completely…]

“I guess I was shaking so much that it was noticeable to other elves.

“I think I heard someone say, ‘Shouldn’t you come out?’.”

Of course, there were elves who didn’t.”

[Cairil]:”You have to endure it. Don’t even think about getting out of the water.”
[Barues]:”It’s because you’re weak that you’re not achieving anything.”
[Merisa]:”It must be the influence of human blood. Elves don’t feel this kind of cold.”

“At that moment, the anger that surged in my chest seemed to give me warmth for a while.

It wasn’t an emotion towards them.

It was anger at myself for thinking of giving up even for a moment due to the cold, when it might be a chance to awaken magic.

Just like that, I closed my eyes again.”

[– The kid is full of tenacity ㄷㄷ]
[– Sigh, it’s sad…]
[– This is why she snorts at the games.]
[– Mental training while doing special forces training from the age of 7…]
[– It… seems like rp and reality are mixed.]
[– Huh, why was I listening to it like it was really her childhood story?]
[– It’s probably because Leah’s tone is too natural…]

“After a while, I didn’t feel cold.

The places where the water touched gradually disappeared.

No, to be precise, it’s not that they disappeared.

It felt like I forgot whether it was even my body.

I couldn’t feel where my ankles were.

I was confused about whether my hands were clenched or open.”

Just like I did back then, I quietly closed my eyes.

It was a long time ago.

But I could still vividly describe that feeling.

“I realized then.

I’m not feeling my body.

Beyond the skin, beyond the muscles, like all the senses that nerves should reach were blocked.

As if it wasn’t my body, but a stone sinking in deep water.”

[– It seems like hypothermia-induced sensory dullness and muscle stiffness?]
[– She’s talking like she really experienced it…]
[– Ugh, it’s so plausible that it’s a bit scary.]
[– What? Is it a real experience?]
[– It’s a real experience… Leah always says that.]
[– That’s not what I meant ㅡㅡ]

“And, at some point, it got warm.

From my fingertips, from my toes, I felt a strange warmth spreading.

I also thought that if I went out now, the cold air might feel even colder.”

[– It seems like she’s about to freeze to death;;]
[– Is this really a made-up story, even though she’s saying it like this?]
[– Why are you enduring it to that extent, you stubborn Leah ㅜㅜ]
[– What are the hateful elves doing? Are they just watching?]
[– Her lips must have turned blue by that point.]
[– Ugh, I feel so frustrated! I need cider… I need cider.]

“I don’t remember if everyone stayed until then or if there was an elf who spoke to me.

Because all the sounds were muffled as if they were coming from afar.

I heard later that they saw my body completely submerged, pulled me out, and returned.”

[– So they left her alone until the end?]
[– They set the mood and the response is legendary ㅋㅋㅋ]
[– Game over. All of them. Arrest them.]
[– Let’s go with juvenile detention center disposition 9~]
[– What’s the elf prison? Is it like a Venus flytrap?]
[– Did the perpetrators get properly punished?]

“That’s right.

Everyone was called in and scolded for doing something outrageous.”

[– Is that… all?]
[– Why is it realistic even in this part…]
[– Don’t tell me that everyone being called in includes Leah?]
[– Then no matter what Leah says, I’ll think of elves=psychos.]

“I was more mature in mental age than them.

So I understood that they were all young and didn’t intend to directly harm me.

Maybe the adults knew that too, so they let it go like that.”

[– It seems like Leah’s rp is poorly structured! Isn’t the race angels?]
[– Angel (pushover).]
[– Did you apologize?]

“Not everyone apologized at the time.

Over the years, even Cairil came to admit his fault.

But… it’s true that I became awkward with my peers after this.

It became an opportunity to immerse myself in training alone.”

[– The ending is bitter…]
[– It’s dawn and I got depressed ㅜ]
[– What’s with the atmosphere…]
[– (Looking around…)]

“Is it only bitter?

“After experiencing this, I tried to become more like an elf.

It’s all thanks to that that Pias can meet the current Leah.”

[– No, it’s more sad if you tried for this reason…]
[– Red pill) Trying to be more like an elf = Trying to break through the Blooming Core competition.]
[– Oh… I should take the pill quickly and wake up from being overly immersed.]
[– I was so focused on listening that I couldn’t even eat my late-night snack properly ㅎㅎ]
[– The storytelling was good ㅋㅋㅋ]
[– Even if you don’t prepare a lot, proceeding with this kind of feeling doesn’t seem bad?]

Should I tell you this story too… I worried for a moment, but changed my mind.

Some memories are more precious than others… I felt like keeping them to myself for a long, long time, and sharing them at a more special moment.

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The day I regained consciousness and changed my clothes, my father looked at me silently.

“I’m sorry.”

It was the first apology I had ever heard from my father.

“I… loved your mother.”

His voice was low and calm.

A calm tone, as if tracing back old memories.

When you were born, I wished.

That her blood would not become a shackle to you.

In my father’s eyes, which I saw again, there was an unerasable weight.

“But, in the end… it had to be that way.”

I bit my lip tightly.

At first… my father’s words sounded like comfort.

“But the last words pierced my heart.”

He said that the blood of the person my father loved would become a shackle to me.

I couldn’t accept those words as they were.

Just because my mother’s blood flows, there was no reason for it to become a burden.

That blood should not make me half, but a reason to become whole.

I slowly raised my head.

“No, Father.”

My father lowered his gaze.

“I… will become stronger.”

A moment of silence.

And, my father’s long and slender elf-like hand was placed on my head.

It was soft.

But, there was a subtle tremor.

That touch was so light that it sank with a deep weight.

It seemed that the emotions my father couldn’t say remained at his fingertips.

“…Yes.”

That short word lingered in my heart for a long time.

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[Blooming Core Minor Gallery]

📂[General] Leah turned on the broadcast, go go.

🎬[Clip] Barely smoothing over the Coconut disparagement ㅋㅋㅋ (6)

📂[General] Sara sharpened her sword, can Leah surpass the impact? (8)

📂[General] Let’s start the countdown.

📂[General] Real-time music video legend ㄷㄷㄷㄷ.

📂[General] Was the Ori song this kind of song?;; (2)

📂[General] Let’s predict when the music video interpretation will end (3)

📂[General] Ugh, Leah.

🎬[Clip] Leah announces a new song as soon as the Ori song music video comes out! (17)

📂[General] Karaoke, she knows what she’s doing ㅋㅋㅋ.

📂[General] Wow, Leah’s song, f*ck.

📂[General] What the, really.

📂[General] Esmi Leah << The reason why we absolutely need to increase the karaoke cycle (15).

🎬[Clip] Today’s Leah song collection + composition ability analysis (27).

📂[General] Blockverse entry ㅋㅋㅋㅋ.

📂[General] Koharu, who poisoned the 3rd generation, must apologize.

🎬[Clip] The great Leah showing her physical skills even in Blockverse now (8).

📂[General] 3 consecutive 1st places in Ninja Run ㅋㅋㅋㅋ.

📸[Screenshot] Commemorative photo with sniper Yerim-jwa ㅋㅋ (4)

📂[General] Leah says she’ll continue broadcasting??

📂[General] Isn’t it a build-up for a two-day break? (2)

📂[General] She’s young, so she’s good at staying up all night.

📂[General] That donation just now, f*ck.

📂[General] Are you bringing Pazijik Gallery topics to the broadcast? (5)

📂[General] It seems like it’s just one of the stories prepared in advance…?

📂[General] No, why is the content so depressing? (2)

📂[General] Leah ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ

Title: The reason why Leah’s story broadcast was a bit strange today.

Content: I’m one of the special forces who have watched all of Leah’s storytelling, but today’s broadcast felt a bit different.

Before, it just felt fun and the settings were interesting.

But today, as I listened, I kept feeling like it was real?

I thought about why.

There were no fantasy-like battles or adventures, and the topic itself had a weak connection to the existing story.

It seems like it’s because of the emotionally immersive atmosphere.

But Leah didn’t really experience something like school violence, right? It’s dawn, so am I being too sentimental? I’m worried…

Comments:

• I felt it too… It felt like a metaphor, being discriminated against for being a half-breed or not being able to use magic.

• It feels like she’s unraveling real experiences as a novel?
  └ It wouldn’t be exactly what she experienced, right? Then it’s so pitiful.
  └ If it was that kind of incident, wouldn’t it have appeared in the news?
  └ No, the description of hypothermia was too vivid..?

• I was a bit confused, whether I should chat as usual or sympathize…

• If it’s real, is there a reason to release it as rp?
  └ The broadcast would be ruined.
  └ Maybe she’s saying it indirectly because it would be an issue.

• Are you guys collectively on drugs? You’re suddenly making forced interpretations.

• Elf, magic story, and you’re saying it’s too realistic ㅜ School violence? << ????????
  └ No, I said it felt like her own experience, really.

• Unless Leah mentions it separately, it’s right to accept it as an extension of the usual rp.
  └ Maybe there was a hidden meaning in the stories she usually told.
  └ This is what forced interpretation is… Leah is just trying to make the broadcast fun.

• I’ll just believe it’s a setting… If she actually experienced something similar, it would be too heartbreaking.